Not that I don't have anything to say, I am hardly ever at a loss for words, but I just haven't felt like sitting down and writing.
I love to write. I feel like my life isn't complete if I am not writing something. I used to love when part of my professional career involved writing, but lately I haven't been writing - anywhere in my life.
At first, sitting down to write felt so forced. Setting time aside to sit down and write took the joy out of it. It was starting to feel like a chore and that is the exact moment when I lost my inspiration. Writing for the sake of writing isn't what I love.
The break felt good at first. I felt somewhat liberated. I wasn't constantly checking my email or google reader. I had lots of free time. I felt like I had a life. Then I started to miss it. There was something about me that wasn't complete.
I would curl up on the couch watching a movie and would even tell my husband, "I haven't even written in my blog". At first it seemed like an accomplishment and then I noticed the twinges of self-doubt in my voice.
I feared opening up my email and my computer because I hadn't read blogs in so long. I cringed when I wanted to come to my space to write but feared it had been too long.
The truth is, that I love my little space and I love the person that I am when I contribute here.
I am re-dedicating myself to my little space here. Re-dedicating myself to the love of writing that started it all.
This space isn't just about me, it's about my children and the journey that we've taken to get to this point. It is about the journey we have taken as a family - to live abroad, to explore new cultures, to expose ourselves to new things.
I hope that I haven't lost you completely on this journey of self discovery and that you will follow me on my new adventures in this space.
15 comments:
sometimes a little "break" is all we need to tackle the hullabaloo of our everyday lives. take your time and we're still here for you waiting when you'll write again.
funny though because I was thinking about writing you an email, to say hi and just to check if everything is OK at your end because you haven't written anything lately and then boom when I open my computer there's your blog post. hehe
good luck, barbara!
Didn't lose me - still living in France through your eyes (or wishing to). One thing that helps me with the blog is sometimes I get "a thought", a string of words or an idea that I want to write about and I just jot down 3 paragraphs really quickly. Even if its just like 3 sentences a paragraph the bones are there, and I can work from it later, or post it like that! I missed you!
Re-Bonjour! Love that you allowed yourself a break! LOVE that you're back! I go through phases of wondering what I'm doing with my blog...and I always come back to it's just something I love. And if people read it, great. If not - I love it anyway!! Like you, I don't feel the same without the creative outlets I've found in my life. Hugs!
I think it's this time of year. I've been feeling the same way. Once the trees start blooming we'll have all sorts of stuff to write, right?
It's the little breaks that rejuvenate, refresh and renew so that it's fun again!
Awe, sometimes a much-need break is in order. I've totally been there. Glad to have you back though.
With two boys you deserve a break! It is hard, sometimes I feel blogging is a much needed release, me-time, other times it's an obligation. I guess the trick is finding the balance, just like with anything in life.
Been there. Still there sometimes. In between my bouts of sleeplessness I was getting a serious case of writer's block.
Welcome back!
It sounds like you really needed a break. I am so glad you are back.
Glad to see you back...and yes we all need breaks. I think I need one too...and I've seen the winter to that to a lot of people.
I think we all go through little breaks of some form or another as it can be a lot. But yes, ultimately I am always drawn back to it.
Hey! Welcome back! we all need a break sometimes!
I have felt like this a lot the last few months. It feels so forced and it's weighing me down more. It's not that I don't enjoy writing or reading blogs--but I want it to be fun and not an obligation. I need to step back when I need to, but still enter and engage when the time is right. I just know I can't do it everyday. You are not alone.
I hadn’t come for awhile, because it looked as though you were “busy,” Sometimes we just need a break, don’t we? Happy to see you back…love visiting :)
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